i've made up my mind. although i said earlier i was running for council, i was still very conflicted inside.i spent the whole #*%$ week thinking and thinking, and i wasn't myself lately. i was constanly weighing the pros and cons, and thinking of the people i would impact and things that would happen if i did/ did not run. i've been praying to God for clarity of mind, and i think it's working to a certain extent at times i'd feel that i would run, and at times i would feel i wouldn't. a lot of internal conflict, and as a result this hasn't been my best week. after discussing with my 'rents and continuos praying, i've decided not to run. i think it will affect my studies negatively and i won't be able to do the best i can for scouts. if i were to run, it would only be for the CCA points. part of me was thinking 'hey, the points are as good as yours! just take it!'. i was tempted to, but the rational part of my grey matter told me if i was running for that reason, i might as well not run at all. i won't do a good job, and my eyes won't be on the service, but on the benefits instead. that was really selfish of me.for all the time as a councillor, i'll devote it to my studies, cos like my dad said, ultimately, it's your grades that count. hopefully this isn't one of the decisions i will live to regret.sigh. pray for me.
